The Big Picture

This photo was taken in downtown Denver, when I was living in Colorado. We were eating at a restaurant across the street, celebrating the birthday of the man I spent eleven years of my life with. I don’t like saying ex-boyfriend- sounds so strange. ūüôā

So, I was reminded of something while reading a fellow bloggers post (thank you Rob)¬†this morning. It’s something that actually helped me a great deal not too long ago…

Looking at the BIG picture.

Being new to Christianity, and fairly new in the program- the first things I had to face (acknowledge and admit) were my defects. My wrong thinking. My sinfulness. My self-centeredness.

The bottom line is that I discovered I had learned, early in life, how to dodge my fears¬†by becoming someone that I was not. You know…a people pleaser. Give them what they want. Tell them what they want to hear. Be who THEY want you to be. The problem here is that I’m now not even sure who THEY were. My peers when I was young? Well, that’s not what I want to dwell on.¬†I’m getting sidetracked.

The point is, that once I looked in the mirror and faced the bad head on- I lost complete sight of all the positives. I almost couldn’t remember the good things I’d done in life. That might be why a lot of my posts are about my memories. I’m finally starting to recall, and embrace,¬†the great experiences¬†that I’ve had. Things I’d almost forgotten!

Some months ago I came across a book on learning to love yourself. What the author taught- is that we’re¬†not defined by any one quality, or character defect for that matter. For every negative, there’s an equally important positive. Making a list of ALL of your traits, and looking at THAT, is what allows you to see yourself as a whole.

Maybe I overthink, but after I mentioned¬†procrastination last night¬†I started thinking that I wasn’t being fair.¬†Yes… I sometimes procrastinate, but I also have a lot of¬†ambition. I’m not going to leave things on a¬†negative note. For every downside, there is an upside.

Anyway, after I pushed publish last night I decided to challenge my procrastinating tendency, and I went on to browse framing ideas online.¬†I have some wonderful, creative¬†visions… dancing around in my head. I’m excited!

Tomorrow is HERE, and I’m moving forward.¬†No excuses. I’m holding myself accountable.

I guess you could say that I’m not chasing the wind today… I’m chasing my dreams.

Have a blessed day everyone! Peace and love.