Endless Rivers

of Hope

So, don’t freak out… but tonight my mood is confined.

I guess that’s a mood, no? Today was absolutely weird. This evening I felt kind of burned out on the photography. Second, I haven’t felt like writing because there is either too MUCH on my mind, or nothing at all! I did say I was going to relax, but my mind was like mush!

And then tonight I got a call from a man friend. One that I wrote about in my first story… a man that I pursued. He was a part of the whole big mix of my loneliness- unhealthy relationships- drinking pattern. I felt trapped. Maybe I’m just afraid of what might happen when I step out of this safety net of singleness and get back out there.

It’s funny because I was just thinking earlier that since the photography and writing are good replacements for my old BAD habits… if I lost the passion for those things then what would I do next? And then he called. A little bad timing I guess. So now that I’ve said all that, maybe I don’t feel trapped after all. Maybe I feel that it IS a trap.

A trap that I don’t want to fall into.

4 thoughts on “Confinement

  1. To believe in God one must also believe in the devil and the strength that it’s power has. I see it lurking, waiting for a moment of weakness – which we all have.
    God Himself has given you talents which are photography and writing. Your passions. He will not take them back, they are inside of you, part of you. These talents that He has given you were part of you before you were even born. It is not possible to lose them, they are in your DNA.

    Dips of motivation on the other hand….. yepp. All too real. But true passions will never leave.

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  2. Gil says:

    Interesting timing… Is there such things as coincidence? Or Is the supernatural always waiting for opportunities.
    Makes life matter and count

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  3. This is a great work on your part

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