Of all the paths you take in life, make sure a few of them are dirt. John Muir
Sometimes I think or say something, and later I realize that it wasn’t 100% correct.
I try to look at it like there’s a lesson that I need to learn, or a new discovery that I can take away from it. I’ve mentioned before that it’s important for me to learn how to live sober, and that DOES (and probably always will) hold true—however—there are other things that I need to DO, and I always seem to put them at the bottom of my list!
Giving. Being of service. Carrying the message. Thinking more of others.
It’s not that I don’t have a huge desire to be selfless… I really DO! It’s that my mind keeps returning to my old thought pattern—which goes something like:
What do you have to offer? You’re not ready. You’re not well enough. You don’t know enough yet.
I can go on and on, but you get my drift. IF I allow myself to listen to and believe those thoughts… I’ll NEVER be ready! There’s this old belief system that was instilled in me at some point in my life, and (sadly) an every man for himself mentality, that keeps telling me… you WILL do great things for others… but FIRST, you need to ARRIVE.
Arrive where?!? I have no clue! It’s like there’s an imaginary finish line somewhere out there, and I keep believing that once I cross THAT, I will be strong enough, good enough, smart enough- or will have enough- to help other people. Like I said before… I’ve been sensing this season coming on for awhile now. This feeling that all I’ve been doing lately is stalling. It’s time to get into action- and start doing more to help those who are in need or are still struggling.
Last night it was becoming clearer, and then today at church… I think God was giving me a message:
It is time. “I” am enough for you.
Blessings… and please stay tuned. I’m excited!
The time is always right to do what is right. Martin Luther King Jr.