Month: March 2017

Scrolling Up

I’ve had an unusually hard time finding interesting things to photograph, so I’m sticking with my plan to try new and different ways to edit and display them. In case it’s not clear, this is a tree framed on a scroll.  (it’s hard to know how it’ll look on various devices!) I’m also going to spend more time on ONE image.  I’m always pointing out what I could have done differently… so from now on I’m doing things slower, and hope to make those changes first– then post. I’m aiming for improvement now, rather than speed. (which is a real feat for this speed demon!) In other news… and speaking of being slow… I’ve been in no rush to update my other blog because I’m really thinking things through. Being young in both recovery and my walk with God, I’m finding more and more that I still have ample work to do. Nourishing my soul and allowing my roots to grow deeper, for starters. My relationship with God MUST come first, before anything. So I’m spending more time with …

Vivid Dreams

If one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life which he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours. Henry David Thoreau I suppose this image and quote could be misleading. I’m not a golfer, nor do I dream of ever being one! These were photos that I took over the past few days. Both were shot from a distance; the golfer at the edge of the lake, and the background is actually the top of a palm tree that was blowing in the wind yesterday. And midway through writing this post I decided to add one more element to the golfer… A personalized golf ball!

The Lookout

“Be sure you put your feet in the right place, then stand firm.” Abraham Lincoln This is one of the clearest shots I’ve ever gotten of a bird that’s in the distance. Now if only he hadn’t hid behind that branch!

Outside The Box

This little bird was adorable! I can’t get a decent, solid shot of those tiny ones from where I’m situated… so I did some color work and decided to frame it with cardboard. Just something different. To live a creative life, we must lose our fear of being wrong. Joseph Chilton Pearce

Living Large

DOES THIS BRANCH MAKE ME LOOK BIG??? So far this is the biggest to come around. It really IS a leafless, leaning and tired looking tree, so it was amusing to see this big bird hanging out near the top of it. According to google this is a band tailed pigeon. It’s much prettier than the pigeon’s I’ve seen in the freeway underpass. 🙂 Anyway, all is well! We have business to take care of today, but tomorrow we’re hoping to visit a botanical garden nearby. Super excited about that!! That’s about all for now. Happy Monday!! ♥♥♥

My Crazy Space

Kind of weird and random… I took some photos of light reflecting off of a golf course lake. How I ended up with this I’ll never know! Just thought it was kind of cool. Peace & Love!

Knock On Wood

What a beautiful day it’s been! This (dead looking) tree is directly in front of my sister’s balcony and seems to attract all kinds of birds. I photographed about seven or eight different types as they came by to visit. Just thought I would start with this one. What a great feeling to spend time somewhere new. I’m already feeling refreshed. Love it! I’m sure tomorrow will be just as good…but to be safe… I’ll KNOCK ON WOOD! (CORNY I know, but I had to say it anyway)

Positive Vibes

It is not happy people who are thankful, it is thankful people who are happy! I think I’ve finally hit the last of the archived images I had saved. I’m sure glad I’m leaving tomorrow! Perfect timing. I may drive my sister crazy with the camera, but lucky for me she’s a very patient soul. Anyway, I just want to send out a whisper of gratitude. I hit 300 followers and to me that’s a huge milestone. More than I ever expected! I’m saying my thanks to you quietly here… because I don’t want to jinx it. I appreciate all of you out there, whether you are one of the three hundred or not. I learn a little something from you guys each and everyday. Thank you so much!! Here’s to all of you! 

Spreading Wings

This morning I heard rustling and chirping in the garden and saw a little white bird hopping from flower to flower. I must have a thing for wings because as soon I saw the wing on this shot I knew that I had to make it work.  The bird was very tiny and I was too far away, so it took quite a bit of tinkering, but at least the wind stands out. 

In This Moment (Trust)

Separating topics is not easy. Not on the blog, anyway. I did some tinkering and there is no logical way to do it. I think that going to regular A.A. meetings (and looking to be of service) was the real STEP that I needed to take, and I’m doing that. At least I’m gaining clarity! Anyway, it’s been four whole days since I started studying the word TRUST, and I want to share my first day. I chose Psalm 40, verse 4. Blessed is the man who makes the Lord his trust, who does not turn to the proud, to those who go astray after a lie! What REALLY struck (and amazed) me were verses 1-3. I waited patiently for the Lord; He inclined to me and heard my cry. He drew me up from the pit of destruction, out of the miry bog, and set my feet upon a rock, making my steps secure. He put a new song in my mouth, a song of praise to our God. Many will see and fear, and put …

Are You in There?

Sometimes I look in the mirror and say… “where did my personality go?!?”  Well… maybe I don’t look in the mirror and say it, but I DO wonder what’s up with me lately. And I don’t mean it in a horrible, sad, woe is me way either. It’s just that I get to the point (now and then) when I realize it’s been WAY too long since I’ve had a good laugh. I still chuckle, but I don’t LOL like I used to. I had a dream last night that I was drinking. How bizarre is that?!?! It was weird! I don’t even think about drinking, at ALL, so I have NO idea where it came from. I hope it’s not because I’m back in the A.A. circuit and listening to all that talk about alcohol… absorbing some kind of subliminal messages or something? The meetings really ARE going well though. Also, I’m emailing my sponsor my resume and we’re going to work on finding me a part time job. Finally. I haven’t given up on the photography and …

Spring Fling

Our backyard is absolutely blooming with color these past few days, and the Ginkgo is coming to life. Just about a week ago we could practically count the leaves on it! One thing I am really grateful for this past year is living with my mom. Besides the fact that we keep each other company (and I have a roof over my head!), I’m really coming to appreciate the nature that is here. I think it took the onset of spring for me to realize it too. I’ve known this backyard since I was about three years old and this was probably the first year I can remember where I actually watched this tree go from green to yellow, to completely bare… and now here we are again. These leaves are actually very small by the way. This shot is up-close and personal. I haven’t been out around town much lately, so this morning I wandered around the yard to see what was new, and decided to share this little portion of our gigantic tree. Blessings!!

Trust

Trust: firm belief in the reliability, truth, ability, or strength of someone or something. Well… I’m starting something new! I’m making my way back into A.A. meetings, and still very passionate about writing, photography and art- but I’m adding on to my activities. I need variety and more balance in my life. 

Bohemian Hummingbird

“I feel in every girl there is a spirit, a wild pixie, that if let go, would run and dance in grassy fields until the end of the world. And then that girl grows up, that pixie hides, but it’s always there, peeking out behind old eyes and reading glasses, laughing, waiting, to one day dance again. -Atticus Poetry-

The Light Ahead

Being at ease with not knowing is crucial for answers to come to you. Eckhart Tolle Warning: Reconstruction Ahead Sometimes I wonder if [some of] my posts need a warning label or disclaimer, just to alleviate my own anxieties. Sharing pieces of my journey, while I am in the midst of the journey, sometimes leaves me feeling vulnerable and uneasy- because I know from experience that it’s a work in progress (and subject to change). The word Journey suggests travel or passage from one place to another. With that in mind, the truest and most accurate disclaimer I could ever add would be… I have NOT reached my destination. But I think everyone already knows that. None of us has. Anyway… I really liked the quote I found because I need to hold tight, and be at ease with the fact that sometimes I’m right, sometimes I’m wrong, and sometimes… I just don’t know. It’s ALL just a part of the journey. Write or Wrong. Blessings, peace and love!!! *The image is from Phoenix. It’s an ominous …

A Fiery Soul

There may be a great fire in our soul, but no one ever comes to warm himself by it, all that passers-by can see is a little smoke coming out of the chimney, and they walk on. Vincent van Gogh  

Walking My Walk

So… I guess this would be the portion of my blog where I share about my walk, and where I’m at; the My Journey section. Maybe I over-complicated the whole thing by trying to explain it. I do that sometimes. In time it will all make sense. The main thing I want to do is properly categorize. I hope to organize this “hodgepodge of a blog” and it ain’t easy. Eventually I will nail it. I emailed my sponsor about my decision to dive back into A.A. and to start making myself more available to be of service (which I guess you could call re-committing). I just love her! Her reply was right on point… “We can preach a better sermon with our lives than our mouths.” One thing I failed to mention in my last post is that ALL of the meetings I’ve been attending these past six months are not your typical A.A. meetings. That information probably helps to make sense of my thoughts. Monday night recovery is actually a class at my church, and it’s taught by our …

A Bit of Humility?

Awhile back I received a private message from someone about my blog. In the message, they mentioned something about my attachment to religion. Believe it or not, the very first thought I had was: “RELIGION!?! I’m not attached to religion! I have a relationship with God!” I didn’t reply to the message with that thought, but it’s exactly what came to mind. Where on earth does my blog say that I am attached to religion? If you were to review my posts all the way back to day one, I would bet a dollar that you would rarely- if ever– find the word religion. Not that I intentionally omit it, mind you, it’s just a word that I don’t use very often. Or even think of really. So… today is actually the perfect day for this post. It is the seven month anniversary of my baptism. Alright, so maybe THAT sounds religious. Anyway, my point is that today is a good day to share what I’ve been learning this past week- which will also explain more …

Thursday Tidbit

Unless you learn to face your own shadows, you will continue to see them in others, because the world outside you is only a reflection of the world inside you. I’m still in the midst of some kind of photo block. Personally, I think it’s just a little burn-out. The story of my life is overdoing things… so it makes sense that maybe it’s just time for a little timeout. I started reading, which is a VERY good thing. Anyway, this bird was in the backyard this morning, so I just gave him (or her) some color, and a mock reflection- just for the sake of having something to do, and to get in some practice. Blessings!! Have a beautiful day. ♥♥♥

Breaking Out

I’m still here. Waiting on someone to arrive and had to do one more. This was a shadow on the back wall this morning, and I tweaked the effects and hues until it sang to me. I wasn’t sure what the colors were tying to tell me, but then I realized it’s a call to break out! I’m feeling smothered. I have a feeling some crazy and colorful stuff is coming soon. That’s the mood I’m in!! Peace! 🙂

The Confession Series

Part One: I didn’t believe in God, so I never really feared going to hell… but then again, I didn’t need to. Hell had made its way to earth and was coming for ME. Part Two: I was a shy and quiet girl, from a perfectly normal family, who JUST wanted to fit in and be liked. Part Three: I want to say that the job taught me to be shrewd, but that sounds harsh. Simply put, it was the first thing in my life that gave me a sense of my own identity. Part Four: Left to my own devices- I will overdue things to the point of self-destruction, sickness, or far worse- Death. Part Five: Hands sweating, heart racing, vision slightly blurred and my mind in a fog (but sober!), I put my foot on the gas, and held on tight to the wheel. Part Six: If the hole was round, this square peg would become ROUND, dammit, because I was going to fit! Part Seven: I needed to replace my unhealthy addiction of …

Awkward Growth

“The tiny seed knew that in order to grow, it needed to be dropped in dirt, covered in darkness, struggle to reach the light.”  -Sandra Kring I’m not quite sure why I’ve been leaning towards pink and purple lately. I think it’s because I’ve been feeling hurt and angry, and I wanted to calm myself. I think my images express my thoughts and moods even more than I realized. Maybe backwards though, because they tend to project what I want to feel, rather than what I do feel. I can live with that. 😉 Anyway, I shot this on my last visit to the old zoo. What’s interesting about the tree is that it’s growing somewhat sideways (and no… I didn’t tilt the camera). So… it works as a pretty good featured image for my weekend thoughts… about Growth. I’ve already mentioned that I had some weird experiences last week. What’s funny is that I really was sent into a mini tail-spin for a day (or two)… BUT, I’m kind of excited now because I discovered that it was really just an opportunity for growth. Pushing through the …

Think Pink

Keep calm and pink on. I had to do something light before I left because I’m really wanting to shoot for subtle lately. Not sure it’s exactly subtle, but it’s definitely pink! It’s actually flowers from our backyard, taken today, with a background layer of snow and sky. I think it was a cool blend! Almost looks like some water reflection going on. Have a beautiful rest of the day (or evening) everyone! Peace and love…

Old Blue Eyes

Just a random pigeon today, at the old underpass. I had to get outside, go for a walk, and clear my head. I was literally in tears this morning. Too much weirdness going on that is far beyond my control- or understanding, for that matter. It must be that you’re almost at one year… let’s see how we can mess you up thing. Anyway, I’m still not sure about the mystery background images. I guess I’ll just have to tell you when there is something “beneath the surface”.  In yesterday’s image: Hold On Tight – the background layer was horse’s fur, and I don’t see how anyone could have guessed because I created the image and even I can’t tell! If you look at the top right, you can see the hair the most, sort of. Silly. Anyway… I used some blue metal in the background layer on this one and the blue eye appeared, so I decided to keep it. Kind of an interesting effect. That’s all for now. Peace and Love!! ♥♥♥ Have a beautiful day, …

The General Store

An old General Store, that I took in Leadville, Colorado. It looked old & lonely—sort of how I felt when I lived in that tiny old town— so I added a few effects to give it some company. …and another version in color for those snowy days when you need something extra.

Shattered Dreams

“And when he finished speakin’ He turned back toward the window. Crushed out his cigarette And faded off to sleep…” -The Gambler, Don Schlitz Well this was certainly random. 😉 I’m trying to figure out ways to create unique collages. The main image (the casino town) and the cigar sign (taken off the side of a building) were shot in Central City, Colorado- which I visited once while I lived in the area. I love signs painted on brick! The rainbow was imported from Phoenix. 🙂 Honestly… I don’t love it- but I like that I was able to combine images in a way that they somewhat blend. I think the town got a little distorted along the way… it looks off keel. The cigar sign is actually hiding a row of parked cars, so that worked out well. I think it would be a fun way to do road trip collages, actually piecing the images together to make a complete scene. We shall see. Anyway, I guess the end result of this experiment is a …