Month: April 2017

Light Trickles

Indecision may or may not be my problem. -Jimmy Buffet After altering this photograph enough times I decided to go for the variety pack image… (thanks for the suggestion Nickel boy) hence the somewhat applicable quote. ūüėČ I think the purple negative at bottom right is actually my favorite. Below are clickable versions for anyone interested. After all of the reading I’ve been doing it was nice to sit and clear my head by working on this. But I’ll get back to my reading soon. I am absolutely fascinated by all things relating to psychology. More and more light trickles in as I discover things about our minds, our personalities, and society- and it really HAS helped me with the whole self-acceptance thing. You know… something I realized is that it’s not looking back at my old self¬†that gets me off track and feeling a little “less than”…¬†it’s looking too far ahead. I do believe that God is taking me to amazing places, but spending too much of my time and energy trying to zero …

Strut Your Stuff

I want to live in a world where a chicken can cross the¬†road without its motives being questioned.¬† I failed to mention that while I was busy babysitting the pugs, I also had to keep an eye on three chickens.¬†It appears that I live in a world of threes! Anyway, I just wanted to share this one. I have more images- probably even better ones, but I really liked the fact that you can see her strutting. And she is beautiful! Peace and Love….   ACTION:¬†Any Change Toward Improving Ones Nature.

Painting the Sky

The sky grew darker, painted blue on blue, one stroke at a time, into deeper and deeper shades of night.¬†Haruki Murakami, Dance Dance Dance I’ve been dog sitting since Friday¬†and hope to share some interesting images later in the week. I brought my camera… but forgot the USB cable! That’s OK. It forced me to stay off of the computer all weekend, and I needed that. And I had¬†a relaxing movie marathon! And I sit here still… surrounded by three adorable, snoring pugs. I decided to work on one image this evening and I found another archive taken from from a moving car. After some coloring and some obvious artwork… there you have it. A Painted Sky.¬† My interview Thursday went well and it’s possible they’ve matched me to a part time position that sounds perfect for me. I’ll know more this week. And I’m enrolling in a Writer’s Workshop¬†that starts in June! I’m SUPER excited! Peace & Love!

Love & Acceptance

Most people need love and acceptance a lot more than they need advice. Bob Goff I forgot to include something in my previous post.¬†I was trying to watch my word count, and¬†I left out an important part of the story; which was the¬†reason that I chose to do the visualization of my¬†inner critic in the first place! My friend that asked me to share Saturday night spoke after me, and something he said really stuck with me. About love and acceptance. There’s something that I’ve felt I lacked… you know… that something¬†that was holding me back from being more of service before. I thought perhaps it was the thought that I¬†didn’t know enough, or maybe I didn’t have enough sobriety time, or…. ?? The point is that I’ve never been able to¬†pinpoint what it was that was holding¬†me back. There are two sayings in the program that baffled me, because they are almost conflicting. One is you can’t transmit something you haven’t got… and the second is that you have to give it away to …

Food For Thought

First of all, I was asked to do a panel Saturday night.¬†When I got there and saw my friend¬†behind a podium¬†(with a microphone!)… I almost lost my cookies.¬†And yes… that is what I had to do. Share my story in front of a fairly large group from behind that podium. That’s a FIRST for me, for sure. One good thing about “telling your story” is that you really can’t mess it up, because it IS your story! It never changes! Overall¬†I think it went well. Which leads me to the point of my post… My inner critic. Let the Lunatics Out of the Attic I read the coolest thing in a book on introverts. Visualizing your inner critic. I’m sharing it with you because there must be someone else out there who could benefit from it. That’s my guess anyway. So, the inner critic starts out looking like a big ogre. A large, mean and very grumpy looking character. He looks a bit like a judge; wearing a robe, a frown and holding a gavel.¬†Why …

Easy Does It

Perfectionism is man’s ultimate illusion. It simply doesn’t exist in the universe… If you are a perfectionist, you are guaranteed to be a loser in whatever you do. David Burns, MD. I read that quote in a book I am reading about writing. The key, they say… is JUST write. Don’t think about being perfect. I love that thought. Wanting to write “perfectly” stops me in my tracks every single time. I wanted to share that quote before I headed out the door. The image is a beach in south Texas. It looks pretty inviting right now.¬† I have some other great quotes and information I want to share… and will do that as soon as I can. Peace and Love— Janet Perfectionism leads to paralysis, which leads to procrastination. Ain’t that the truth!!

Painted Sunset

I mentioned before that I felt I was entering a new season, and… well… I believe that it’s here! This seems to be a season of learning for me. That being said, you’ll probably hear from me a little less often, simply because it means talking (or writing) less and listening (or reading) more. Funny thing about saying I’ll be writing less. I actually plan to write MORE, but less on the blog and more in my private journal and some short story projects. As interesting things come up, I will definitely share… but I want to focus on completing projects before I write about them. I seem to be one of those people that halts action once I share the steps I plan to take. It’s like I jinx myself!¬†As a precautionary measure, I’m keeping things¬†to myself until I actually finish¬†the tasks I want to complete. I’ve learned some fascinating things about Introverts. I picked up another book called Quiet: The Power of Introverts in a World that Can’t Stop Talking, by Susan Cain. …

Another Life Boat

Fish Out of Water! That heading is from a book that I’m reading and I just¬†HAVE to share about it.¬†Yesterday was a really tough day. I met with my sponsor and we talked about my re-entry into the business world. At some point in the conversation I felt overwhelmed and started to cry. Every time I talk (or think) about this upcoming job search, this crazy fear comes out in me. Fear of mental exhaustion is what I’ve been calling it. I haven’t felt ready to go back to ANYTHING full-time, at ALL. Not right now anyway. After our meeting I felt a bit beaten, sad… and VERY tired. I felt myself sinking into a depression, BUT… I¬†held on and did what she had suggested. I reviewed my resentments (which happen to pertain to some old business relationships), and my character defects… and read some of the A.A. prayers. One of those prayers is asking God to remove the defects that are standing in the way of my usefulness.¬† One thing that’s been bothering me …

A Peaceful Place

We need never shout across the spaces to an absent God. He is nearer than our own soul, closer than our most secret thoughts. A.W. Tozer I thought I’d do one image before I head off to bed. I took a very, VERY long nap earlier this evening and I really do hope I am able to sleep tonight! I wanted something to do to keep my mind quiet. Tomorrow afternoon I’m leading¬†an A.A. meeting, down the street from my house. This means about ten to fifteen minutes of telling my story, or at least share about what’s helped me stay sober. I’ve been mindful not to worry about it… mainly made some bullet points… and I’m staying in the zone of not overthinking it. Anyway, the image is from south Texas and I thought it looked like somewhere I’d like to be sitting right now, to be quiet and still.¬† The water looks a bit like mud, but I wanted to keep the colors soft and neutral… so it’s still pretty close to how …

Finding Rest

I found the words this morning! So, I am going to go with it, with very little editing‚Ķ so I hope this all makes sense.¬†I guess the coolest thing I‚Äôve found about studying the word¬†trust is that it keeps leading me to new words. This morning the word was REST. First of all‚Ķ here is what I‚Äôve learned about what it means to trust¬†God‚Ķ He is a place of refuge, and (in) Him we are surrounded by His protection and embraced by His compassion. Trusting Him means: to lean on Him, to rely on Him, to hold onto Him, to flee to Him for protection, to stay, to hope, to expect, to be patient, and to linger in expectation‚Ķ and wait. It also has a lot to do with being on the inside. Examples are: to be firm (in), to confide (in), to have confidence (in), to be secure (in), to seek refuge (in), to feel safe (in), to have assurance (in), to abide (in) and to find rest (in). This morning finding rest in …

Feeling Funky

I wanted to do something colorful tonight, so here you have it! Writer’s block has been preventing me from writing much of anything about my study of the word TRUST. Every single time I’ve tried!¬†So weird!¬†Anyway… I’m surrendering on the production of that post. At least until the words come streaming in. And I trust that they will. In time. I WILL share something¬†beautiful that I found though!¬†What I’ve been searching around for¬†are the various meanings of the Hebrew and Greek words that are¬†translated to the English word trust¬†in the Bible- and I took¬†this from¬†one of my many finds. Trust has to do with being surrounded and protected in His mercy. Trust is to distinguish that He is good, and to be wrapped and swaddled in the goodness of His everlasting arms.¬† You can’t beat that. Who doesn’t love to be wrapped and swaddled in God’s everlasting arms?!?¬†Anyway, things are going great! I’ve been going to more meetings, reading a lot, and really feeling at peace. I’ve got a couple of people keeping their eyes …

Shades of Spring

Start by doing what’s necessary; then do what’s possible; and suddenly you are doing the impossible. Francis of Assisi I’m not a huge fan of pastels, but I thought this was a good fit for the season. And I’m pretty sure that this is a dove. Pigeons and doves confuse me sometimes. I don’t know if I shared that quote before, but it’s been my mantra for the past week and will continue to be for awhile. I realized recently that I was getting WAY ahead of myself for a little while. Or way ahead of God I should say. Sometimes I get some grandiose ideas and then I realize that there are still very small things that I’ve yet to tackle! That’s a bit humbling. And alcoholic thinking. Anyway, I guess a good thing to remember when walking with God is to walk WITH Him, not a mile or so ahead! What’s funny is I’ve been thinking about that a lot and wanted to do a post called No Shortcuts! Then today, I’m reading …

Queen of Hearts

I shot this image earlier and was prepared to post a blue leaf version, but I did another overlay and really liked the natural and subtle tones in this one. Maybe because I am very tired today. My experience on the panel last night went well. BUT… somehow I ended up going last and had about 7 minutes to tell my tale. Needless to say, I had to skip through half the story and get to the good stuff fast! Maybe that’s a good thing! Anyway, we went out afterwards and I didn’t get home until midnight, after a couple cups of coffee. So… my sleep was a bit disturbed. I’ll tell you one thing. I found out that getting in that rut where I forget to be grateful is easily remedied by doing things like the panels. Seeing the tired and sad faces in the crowd made me both grateful for where I am today¬†and eager to share my HOPE with them. I hit a new level of gratitude,¬†for sure. That’s about all for …

A Healthy Brunch

I’m really¬†liking the action around¬†here today! This is the squirrel that chased the parrots away; munching on a loquat. I guess nature is dictating what I’ll be taking photographs of this season! I’ve added some fun color and the squirrel is a bit hidden (like his henchman) behind a leaf, so I did a zoom in below, for clarity. I was able to capture him “mid-bite”, which was pretty exciting. I guess I’ll be spending more time in the backyard today, so who knows what (or Who) else will show up. I did see a lizard earlier! And I sure wish I liked the taste of those loquats but I have to say that I don’t find them tasty, at ALL. Tonight I’ll be on that panel, at a recovery center nearby, so I’m trying to keep my day stress free. I want to be calm and at peace when I show up… so that my sharing comes with ease. I have a tendency to ramble! May God give me the words that are needed! …

The Watchdog

I watched another squirrel (or the same one!) run across the cable this morning and do a little dive into the loquat tree. Looking for breakfast I assume. A few minutes later one of my feathered friends jumped OUT of the tree. I’m guessing that they don’t share the space too well! I got a few good shots, from pretty far away. I guess he/she got spooked as I tried to get a little closer… so two MORE¬†of my parrot friends (that were still hiding in the tree) were quietly summoned, and they all flew away… ūüė¶ What an exciting morning… there is so much color and movement outside! That’s about all for now. Have a beautiful day everyone!!

Nature’s Collage

Well, I had a great time visiting my sister! Not quite the photo ops I had anticipated, but hanging out with her was the real treat, so I’m not complaining!¬†I was asked to be on a panel Tuesday night—at a recovery center—and I’m really looking forward to that. If it wasn’t for the¬†commitment, I would have stayed in Riverside a little longer… but it’s nice to be home. I shot this today; the loquat tree as a backdrop to the pansy redbud. Just something to do. Today is my first day back and the backyard has¬†changed quite a bit in a week!¬†Anyway… Spring is such a great time for change. Cleaning, reorganizing, new activities, getting rid of things, and fresh starts. Every day! Peace and Love to you! —Janet