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A Better Me

It’s always exciting to see a new year approaching, and the word goal really got me thinking today. Not about my goals for the year ahead, but about the goals I’ve already set—over the last couple of years—and how they have helped change, or shape me, in ways I never expected.

In all honesty, sometimes I have NO idea where this journey is taking me. When I made the decision to go to college, I was SURE that Graphic Design was the path that was meant for me. When I decided to alter my course, and major in Psychology, it felt “perfectly natural.” And now—while I’m figuring out how to work English into the equation—I can’t help but wonder: “Will I ever get this right?”

A goal is not always meant to be reached; it often serves simply as something to aim at.

Bruce Lee

I found that quote this morning and it summed up everything I’ve been thinking about in one neat little sentence. Although I’m not 100% sure which field of study is the “right fit,” I’ve never questioned my desire to pursue a degree, and not once have I wanted to give up on the goal. As a matter of fact, this is probably one of the best adventures I’ve ever been on.

What I find surprising, ironically, is that where I’ve seen the most change in myself— the most growth—has little to do with any major, or which subjects I take (or don’t take); and everything to do with the people I’ve encountered, how I interact with those people, and the extraordinary friendships I’ve made along the way.

I’m learning to really love others… not that distorted romantic-fantasy love that I was always chasing down before. I know that may sound strange, but—for me—that’s pretty huge. Looking back, I’m not really sure who I cared about the most; myself… the bottle… or my love interest of the month (or year). It was one big dysfunctional trinity, that’s for sure.

I guess the point I’m trying to make is that maybe the things we stumble on in our journey are more important than where we’re actually trying to go. What I ultimately decide to major in DOES matter, but what’s more important is that in moving forward, in trying to become a “smarter” me, I’m becoming something I wasn’t really expecting to be: A better me.

Of course, I also realized that I’ve spent the better part of my blogging days sharing stories and images; while neglecting to mingle with so many of my fellow bloggers… some old, and some new. So, my goal this upcoming year is to read a little more; and share a little less.

On that note, I just want to say I love you guys.
As always… Peace & Love!
—Janet

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My name is Janet, and I'm located in southern California. My blog is rather eclectic, featuring art, photography, and a little poetry, as well as short pieces of fiction (now and then). I also share about my walk of faith, and my journey through recovery from alcoholism.

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  1. Some times we are so busy focused on tying loose ends that we don’t notice the new loose ends we are creating … to consume or to create; to explore or to consolidate; to change or to stay stable; colour or black n white … endless debates. We do not become better or worse selves, we are just different at different times and all those selves- they are all us. It’s great to read your journey and to see that you are you in all those posts and experiences and moments. Have a great 2019 ahead.

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