Endless Rivers

of Hope


The authentic self is the soul made visible.

Sarah Ban Breathnach

This photograph reminds me of my favorite pair of jeans— a nice shade of blue; comfortable and worn; and the perfect amount of fade. I love jeans. I have more jeans than I care to admit. Styles and sizes vary.

Jeans make me feel authentic.

When I’m in my jeans, I’m free to be me (sounds like a commercial). I can sit, stand, walk, hike, run, climb or dance… and everything feels right.

Formal attire, on the other hand, has the opposite effect. It feels like I’m wearing someone else’s clothes—clothes that don’t belong to me. Formal wear feels inauthentic to me.

Which brings me back to feeling like a fraud. I thought I’d journal, and start where it all starts—in my mind. The quote made me laugh because I thought of something that happens a lot (so there’s some humor here too).

I really AM an authentic person. I am more transparent than what most normal people would consider “socially acceptable.” In other words, I talk way too much about things that—perhaps—should be private. Not just on the blog… in the face to face world too.

What I’m trying to say is that I don’t think this “feeling like a fraud” thing has anything at all to do with being phony or inauthentic. So, that answers that. I’m no phony bologna. πŸ™‚

What the quote made me think about is self-perception. That is where one form of this misalignment starts (and yes, there are others). I really do feel as though my soul is made visible, and—in my humble opinion—my soul is pretty easy on the eyes! She’s friendly, bubbly, youthful, joyful, healthy and full of energy and life. And my soul is always smiling.

I can’t really describe how I envision my soul, but somewhere in my subconscious—for reasons I can’t explain—she is radiant. She sparkles, and she glows. So… what happens? I walk by a mirror or a window and I see my reflection.

And suddenly I’m like “HUH? Who is that?!”

I’m not dissing myself here. All I’m saying is that my ideas about me, and the me that I see in front of me… well, they aren’t a perfect match. So, this begs the question… which one is right?

That’s all for now. It’s late again.

Thanks for reading!! I’ll pick up where I left off another time.


14 thoughts on “Faded Blues

  1. Is there any article of clothing more honest and comfortable than a trusted pair of blue jeans? 😎

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    1. Janet says:

      No except maybe yoga pants lol. They are too closely related to the pajama family though so not a go-to pant. Haha! Makes me think of your posts about bicycle shorts. πŸ€—

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      1. I had it coming to me … never should’ve mentioned bicycle shorts or capri’s for men … πŸ™‚

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  2. Rhen Laird says:

    I really really LOVE the quote–and the photo is so lovely! Blessings on your week, Janet! ❀

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    1. Janet says:

      Thank you Z! Blessings to you as well. 🎈❀


      1. Rhen Laird says:

        You’re welcome…and I love it when you call me Z, makes me smile πŸ™‚

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      2. Janet says:


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  3. Jeanne says:

    πŸ§΅πŸ’™πŸŒŠπŸšπŸ³πŸŽΆ lovely!!

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  4. judibwriting says:

    I find my writing and I imagine your writing and your photography art for you also reflects your pathways to making your soul visible. It is beautiful, no?

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