A Dieter’s Journal

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Dear Diary,

It’s the 6th of April, the month that I vowed NOT to step on the scale.

Why is it so damn hard?

When I brought up eternity the other day, there was another definition that I skipped right over and it’s pretty applicable right now: a long period of time that seems endless. Yep. This month—or this week even—seems endless.

Bouncing back and forth in front of the scale got me thinking about this lifestyle change. One word came to mind: REWARDS. I realized that the reason I wanted to get on that scale was to see if I had a reward. Why is everything a reward to me?

Food is a reward. When I work… money is my reward. Drinking and smoking were rewards too (or so I thought)! And now… after depriving myself of brown sugar & cinnamon pop tarts, pizza, three scoop hot fudge sundaes with whipped cream and nuts, and good old bleached white flour products, all I can think about is…

Where is my damn reward?!

…to be continued…


Word of the Day Challenge: Bounce

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