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A Dieter’s Journal

Dear Diary,

It’s the 6th of April, the month that I vowed NOT to step on the scale.

Why is it so damn hard?

When I brought up eternity the other day, there was another definition that I skipped right over and it’s pretty applicable right now: a long period of time that seems endless. Yep. This month—or this week even—seems endless.

Bouncing back and forth in front of the scale got me thinking about this lifestyle change. One word came to mind: REWARDS. I realized that the reason I wanted to get on that scale was to see if I had a reward. Why is everything a reward to me?

Food is a reward. When I work… money is my reward. Drinking and smoking were rewards too (or so I thought)! And now… after depriving myself of brown sugar & cinnamon pop tarts, pizza, three scoop hot fudge sundaes with whipped cream and nuts, and good old bleached white flour products, all I can think about is…

Where is my damn reward?!

…to be continued…


Word of the Day Challenge: Bounce

Photo by Suzy Hazelwood from Pexels

Thoughts, Thoughts . . .

And more thoughts!

This morning I woke up tired of thinking. That doesn’t happen very often. In the short time I’ve been awake, I felt droopy, slightly discouraged, and have been questioning some of my own ideas. And then I stumbled on this image and thought that maybe I just need to change the way I’m thinking.

I need to think about things differently.

First of all, besides my WordPress class (which ends Saturday), I’m taking a philosophy class; Intro to Comparative Religion. All I can say is: “That class is exhausting!”

Anyway, the good news here is that last week I was able to hit my mark of 5,500 steps per day. It was actually a breeze once the rain stopped. If the weather stays nice I’ll be able to hit that many steps in just one afternoon walk, so I’m ready to increase my goal.

The challenge here is that the more steps I take, the more I allow myself to cheat on the food end. Like… it’s alright to eat that brownie, you just took 2000 steps! It reminded me of all of my ploys to drink in moderation, like… only wine, or only after 5 p.m., and so on.

I also uninstalled the app that was reminding me to walk around, and to drink water. It was constantly beeping and driving me nuts. Between water sips and restroom trips, there was hardly time for anything else! It got to the point where I’d simply hit snooze, and what’s the point of that?

What I’m realizing is that monitoring a “lifestyle change” is risky. If these changes are meant for the long haul, why do I keep checking in on them… and what do I keep looking for? Instant gratification… that’s what I’m secretly seeking. Every time I get on that scale I hope to see some kind of magic happen. That kind of thinking has to stop. Rome was not built in a day!

So… being the first day of the new month and all, I’ve decided that my goal for April is to Stay off the Scale. I’m kicking up my “steps goal” to 6,500 per day, for the entire month, and I’m putting it on cruise control. No more thinking about it (or checking in on it) until the month comes to a close. I’m going to put more focus on my daily gratitude list instead.

Overall, my diet has improved and I actually lost 5 pounds in the month of March. I’m certainly grateful for that!

That’s about all for now. Thanks for hanging in there with me… and have a beautiful day!

Mediocrity is easy, the good things take time, the great need commitment. —Bob Seger

When Life . . .

Gives you Lemons.


Life has definitely thrown a curve ball. A part of me wonders if it’s the perfect opportunity to postpone my New Lifestyle, New Me adventure, but the other part of me—the pushy and persistent side—will just not let that happen. If there’s one thing I’ve learned in this crazy, twisted, and often convoluted life… it is how to ADAPT.

Some things are going to have to wait. That just can’t be helped. It’s almost impossible to find Ezekiel Bread (or any healthy whole wheat bread for that matter), and Frozen Fruit, Plain Non-fat Greek Yogurt and healthy milk alternatives (for my delicious smoothies) have disappeared from the shelves as well. Adjustments are being made. I’ll reassess the food situation in a few weeks—or when healthier foods are back in supply—whichever comes first.

It’s hard to believe I’m starting WEEK FOUR. My how time flies!

Since my “Stepping Goal’ was modified to 5,500 per day, I’ve managed to hit my mark everyday for the last four days. Yay! It’s so awesome to make small goals because your chances of accomplishing them are so great and—in turn—you constantly have little victories to celebrate. I’m 1000 over my previous average; that’s an additional half-mile per day. Not too shabby.

I’ve been reading tidbits here and there about the dangers of sitting for extended periods, so I’ve decided to address that issue this week. After doing a little (Google) research, I found and installed an app called Water Drink Reminder. Default reminders are once every hour, but I’ve revised mine to ring every 30 minutes (for now).

Since the app literally reminds me to drink water (duh), I’m actually killing two birds with one stone. I get a notification, stand up and do my steps for five minutes (or so) AND I’m reminded to drink water and log the amount into my app.

At the end of the day, I’ve put in my steps all day long (as opposed to waiting until just before bed and pacing frantically around the house to hit my goal!) AND I’m tracking how much water I’m drinking—another healthy addition!

As for lemons, we have a tree out back that is full of them and I’ve never been more grateful for that tree. I think you’ll be seeing another post about lemons soon… maybe a fun recipe.

Anyway, thank you for reading!! I hope you found some useful information or enjoyment here. Until next time…

Be safe and Stay healthy!

—Janet

Plum Blossom

In its Infancy

Stars and blossoming fruit trees: Utter permanence and extreme fragility give an equal sense of eternity. —Simone Weil


What a beautiful quote. I thought it paired well with the plum tree blossoms. I saw them all over our baby tree this afternoon, when the sun was shining bright, and I just knew that I had to get out there and do some shooting.

Thank goodness, too.

Social distancing is pretty much a part of my life these days thanks (or no thanks) to online classes—but the RAIN we were having did a number on the members of my household. We’ve been a little loopy.

Anyway, I liked the idea of blossoms signifying infancy, because infancy is synonymous with beginnings. Yesterday and today I realized I needed to start fresh on some of my goals. I need to go back to the beginning.

I’m afraid I failed to take my OWN advice when jumping into the New Lifestyle program… it was supposed to be about baby steps. Tiny, barely noticeable changes that would become habits—habits that would slowly build on the next; like a snowball effect.

It worked like a dream in week one, then the next thing you know I’m professing my confidence in “the step counter,” and setting the bar high… at 10,000 steps per day. Well… as it turns out, that was a bit of a stretch. Going from borderline couch potato to fitness guru does not a small step make!

Enough crying and blubbering. I’ve looked it all over and have restructured the plan. My goal for the next two weeks is 5,500 steps per day. That’s 1000 over my daily average and it’s small enough to actually DO.

So… my new beginning starts tomorrow; New Lifestyle, New Me in its infancy. I like that.


Thank you for reading! I hope you found something useful or entertaining here, and I hope you enjoyed the image. Those plum blossoms are macro for sure—they’re barely the size of a dime. It was difficult to get them all into focus, hence the dramatic effects.

Words of Advice

How to stick to your goals no matter what—

1. Stick to them.

2. No matter what.

Word of the Day Challenge: Advice

Step, Step…

Step to my Lou

Today is the first day of my week two addition: The 10,000 Steps a Day Challenge.

Maybe it’s just that I’m an optimist, but after receiving my step tracker I can see how this device will become a motivational tool for me. It’s like a little cheerleader, clinging to my body, telling me to just get up and move.

At the moment I have 3131 steps in, and it’s only 5:15 p.m. I don’t think the number of steps is what’s important right now. What matters is that I’m becoming more mindful of my movement, or lack thereof. I don’t know about anyone else, but when I sit down to my laptop I have a tendency to find reasons to remain there; like I’m entranced. I refuse to stop what I’m doing and step away until it’s absolutely necessary—like the house is on fire or something.

Anyway, this is not really a “challenge,” it’s a STEP. A step in the right direction. The shirt I put on this morning fit better than it did last time I wore it. Usually it clings and wants to ride up above my pants… like shirts do when they get too tight. I hate that! It actually hung the way a shirt should hang—freely and gracefully.

I would definitely recommend a step counting gadget to anyone who wants to exert themselves more but likes to have a “companion” nearby who will encourage them. They’re not too expensive if you shop around.

Anyway, I’m still working on ideas for more Food Fun Facts. I’m treading carefully since food is so tricky, and so personal (as many of you have already mentioned). It’s something I really need to think about. Besides, this journey is about having fun, mixing things up, trying new things, and being adventurous—not about calorie counting, nitpicking, and scrutinizing my every move (or bite). Who wants to live like that?!?

For now… it’s time to get up and move.

Peace & Love!!