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A Dieter’s Journal

Dear Diary,

It’s the 6th of April, the month that I vowed NOT to step on the scale.

Why is it so damn hard?

When I brought up eternity the other day, there was another definition that I skipped right over and it’s pretty applicable right now: a long period of time that seems endless. Yep. This month—or this week even—seems endless.

Bouncing back and forth in front of the scale got me thinking about this lifestyle change. One word came to mind: REWARDS. I realized that the reason I wanted to get on that scale was to see if I had a reward. Why is everything a reward to me?

Food is a reward. When I work… money is my reward. Drinking and smoking were rewards too (or so I thought)! And now… after depriving myself of brown sugar & cinnamon pop tarts, pizza, three scoop hot fudge sundaes with whipped cream and nuts, and good old bleached white flour products, all I can think about is…

Where is my damn reward?!

…to be continued…


Word of the Day Challenge: Bounce

Photo by Suzy Hazelwood from Pexels

Phase II

Week one has come to an end and I’m happy to report that I’m down 4 pounds. What’s even better? It’s the beginning of week TWO!

Now it’s time to shake things up. I’ve been reading the book I mentioned before, One Small Step Can Change Your Life: The Kaizen Way, and it has inspired me to take some steps. Some very SMALL steps. And I’ll be counting every one of them.

I ordered a fitness tracker and will have that in hand by Tuesday evening. So… starting Wednesday, I’m going to shoot for 10,000 steps a day and see how that works. What I hope is that wearing the tracker around my wrist will be a constant reminder to me—to get up and move!


My image began as a photo of the moon. I shot it a few days ago when the sun was still shining. I always light up when I can see the moon in the afternoon sky. Does it make for a fantastic photograph? Not always. Not this time anyway. That being said… I decided to give her a little makeover of her own… something to bring out her natural glow.

That’s about all for now. Thank you for reading!

This upcoming week I’ll be sharing some of the cool things that I’ve learned on this journey so far. I hope you’ll stay tuned!

New Lifestyle, New Me

THE LAUNCH

It’s Day One of my Lifestyle Makeover. The starting line was originally set for a week from today—my sober anniversary—but the first of the month makes more sense. It also gives me one week to tip-toe into the whole idea. Just to get this out of the way, and since I’m going to be totally honest and transparent here… I don’t have the Get-Up-and Go-For-It mentality that I wish I had right now. I’m not feeling inspired, OR motivated.

That’s the thing though. If I wait until it feels right, this lifestyle change might never take-off.

I’ve chosen an old image for this. I love the idea of running feet to represent this new journey that I’m on. They symbolize change, growth, and forward momentum. I’m tracking my progress for myself, but also for anyone who’s been considering taking some steps to change their health, eating habits, or lifestyle.

I thought I’d use this first seven days to survey (and talk about) my thoughts, to sketch out a little road map, and to share some of the ideas I have about this transformation. I have no doubt that my daily chronicles will contain humorous anecdotes. I was in the middle of writing the introduction when my mother walked in… marble pound cake in hand… and I caved. No one said it would be easy! 😉

I’m not entering into some dull, rigid, or torturous program here… No siree! This renovation is going to be fun and adventurous. I’m going to try foods that I’ve never tried, do things that I’ve never done, and experience life in ways that I’ve never before considered—from a totally new perspective. That’s the plan anyway.

The goal here is subtle change. I was excited to stumble on an article about a book by Robert Maurer, Ph.D., “One Small Step Can Change Your Life: The Kaizen Way.” I won’t have my hands on it until tomorrow, but the title speaks volumes and seems pretty self-explanatory. Little micro-alterations, that take place gradually, work (and stick) far better than those nearly impossible and enormous changes we try to make.

This last part is where things get uncomfortable. I WILL keep tabs on my body’s metamorphosis. The starting point, obviously, is the hardest to reveal. So… to make things easier (and less conspicuous) I’m going to keep those stats tucked away on my home page. I won’t be shouting them from the rooftops, or sharing them on my posts. If anyone is truly interested in those thoughts and numbers, they can be found there. I think that’s fair.

That’s all I have to share for Day One. It’s all mental work right now. I’m excited though! Thinking and writing has moved my motivation level up one notch from where it was this morning. That’s better than no notch at all! I’m curious to see how this plays out. Maybe nothing will change, maybe everything will change, but the bottom line remains constant…

I’ll never know unless I try.

—Janet
Wish me luck!